Controlling My Anger

Very recently, I was able to control my anger.. I felt really proud of myself and noble. It took me more than 20 years and had paid a lot before I was able to master myself. How did I do that?

While my frequent object of hate, H, was saying hurtful accusations to me.. I was busy yelling and pulling her hair off..  in my thoughts. Strong imagination helped. It was effective for the first few minutes.. But as she continued, I was on the verge of making my day dreaming come true! I stopped and talked to myself. Telling me, that I will not talk back , she'll never deserve it. She shouldn't know, what I am thinking. I can control myself. It was so hard, yet, I continued talking to myself . After she stopped, I felt her shame of what she did, and I felt so proud of myself. I'm so noble.

That control over my anger, has limitations. H should never say bad or cursing words to me. I will never allow myself be degraded by anybody else... wrongful accusations, which I can only say,  are just aint true.. I believe is worth making myself a better person by being quiet and just let her talk ...