My Thoughts

Creating this blog is really meant to cure much of my psychological illnesses rather than any of what I am suffering physically now. I believe, if I will only be able to declutter my mind, I will be more energetic and happier. 

I was made to believe, that to be happier, I was suppose to earn a lot, stopping to smell flowers, were meant for the ultra rich only, and that to be a good person, I had to support other people, otherwise, I will go to hell.

This thinking almost destroyed me.
Now I am older, I began to regret not doing a lot of things.
Wanting to go back to the past, longing for experiences I ignored, praying to be given another chance...
But lately, finally... I accepted that fact.. I am human.. there are just so many things I cannot undo anymore...

I have to focus on what I have now...
See what I can do today, that I will probably regret not doing.. in the future.
I should be very thankful of the blessings, I have today..
Focus on feeling the joy, savoring the moment.. living, just .. now...
Forgive myself wholeheartedly, completely.. as I believe our God will do..

As seeing myself differently, settles in, I can now love myself .. profoundly
The kind of love, I had been demanding from others..
Realizing just now, it feels much better
That I first learn to love my self unconditionally
Knowing... there already is someone who really loves me...