I Love Me

The best thing we can do today is to love ourselves.

Let us start our day thanking God for creating us and allowing us to live another day. Remember that not everybody are given the chance to live longer. Our life is a gift, so we can experience earth's magnificence and challenges to be humans.

Let us begin to physically love ourselves by looking in the mirror and see how beautiful or handsome we are. We will not allow other people's words or actions affect or control us. Let's tell ourselves " If ever someone will make me do things I am not really interested in doing, it's because I allowed them to. I control my thoughts, emotions and my actions."

"I love me. Unconditionally and forever. I accept me for who I am and who I was. I am sorry for all the wrong doings I did especially to really good people. I had forgiven myself and others who had done me wrong. I will focus on all that I am doing good right now. My mind is filled with thoughts of strong faith, great hope and the purest love. All of these help me be the best I can possibly be. I love me.. I love me"

Others Reaction are Reflections of One's Self Worth

Some people will only do their job whenever someone will threaten them...

People who will only notice others, when they are shout at. .

Unbelievably, they don’t treat nice people well.

Serving, only those who are arrogant and disrespectful of them. 

Kindness

Are we really running out of good, loving, kind people?
I’ve been asking that question since I was in my 6th grade when my mom started to obsessively lecture me about being very careful in making friends or just plain talking to strangers. That there’s just so many sinister people out there, with only one purpose in life ie. to hurt others. Being an obedient daughter, I followed her instructions and had been extremely careful in choosing friends , especially acquaintances. My mom meant well with warning me, though, I reached that certain point when I wear different masks with the different group of people I come across with. Just so they cannot fully know me. I believed that they could hurt me so much if they knew me well. I became so judgmental with the personalities of the people I meet such that I told them different versions of my life story . It was awful… and chaotic those times. Filled with anxiety, loneliness and hate. Then, one time, I met a Lady who, became my manager. She helped me overcome the problems I had with trusting people. She was so kind, so generous, so honest, and so loving that I just CAN’T LIE to her. It seemed like, she can see through me so clearly that I will only have to look at her and she knew what were in my thoughts. She became my manager, mentor and friend for more than 15 months. It was a real turning point in my life such that I was able to focus and my thoughts and emotions had became so clear. I gained more friends and was no longer afraid to talk to strangers. Then I found out, there are so many really kind people out there. I’m not gullible though, but if only you’ll reach out, meet as many people as you can, and also be kind and truthful to them, you will certainly find a handful of really good friends.
One more thing I learned is that some really good people have a sort of an intuition, such that they can FEEL if you like them or not. If you open up, they’ll do too. If you need someone to talk to, they’ll generously give up some of their precious time just so they can listen and help. It is indeed a wonderful blessing to be able to meet and have really kind friends.
This is not to devalue prudence in having relationship with other people, but this is just to stress out the fact that there are still KIND GOOD PEOPLE out there. The time, money and other resources that you may have that you will spend to find just one of them is all worth it. Just NEVER GIVE UP !!!

My Thoughts

Creating this blog is really meant to cure much of my psychological illnesses rather than any of what I am suffering physically now. I believe, if I will only be able to declutter my mind, I will be more energetic and happier. 

I was made to believe, that to be happier, I was suppose to earn a lot, stopping to smell flowers, were meant for the ultra rich only, and that to be a good person, I had to support other people, otherwise, I will go to hell.

This thinking almost destroyed me.
Now I am older, I began to regret not doing a lot of things.
Wanting to go back to the past, longing for experiences I ignored, praying to be given another chance...
But lately, finally... I accepted that fact.. I am human.. there are just so many things I cannot undo anymore...

I have to focus on what I have now...
See what I can do today, that I will probably regret not doing.. in the future.
I should be very thankful of the blessings, I have today..
Focus on feeling the joy, savoring the moment.. living, just .. now...
Forgive myself wholeheartedly, completely.. as I believe our God will do..

As seeing myself differently, settles in, I can now love myself .. profoundly
The kind of love, I had been demanding from others..
Realizing just now, it feels much better
That I first learn to love my self unconditionally
Knowing... there already is someone who really loves me...

Resolutions

The primary reason why I created this blog site is to improve myself. That is to make myself more peaceful. My mind is admittedly so chaotic. I am now ready to admit to myself, that I have ADD. It's Attention Deficit Disorder. I thought it was more like bipolar. But as I had researched, it was more aggressive and destructive type.

So, I decided to just take one day at a time. Writing my thoughts as I had been doing with this blog, help me a lot to focus. Taking one day at a time, help me focus on what are the most important things I had to accomplish in a day. As I have a lot of thoughts every second, I forgot to do much of the most essential responsibilities I have to do. 

Another resolution, is to love and be happy of all the blessings that I have right now. I had been thinking of all the things I wanted, that I so blind not to see these wonderful people and things that love and surround me everyday. 

Lastly, I had to forget all hurtful past events. What is most important is what is happening to me right now.

Daily Life

Much of my 40-years of existence, I was worrying so much of what will happen to me, my family, love ones, country, planet and almost all the things that surround me. But I always found myself, regretting why I was not able to enjoy events or simple moments that I am now craving for. Like, moments of playing with my babies, talking with my deceased parents,  romantic moments with my husband, and so many other freely accessible instances in my life. 

I had been so preoccupied of what WILL happen.. that I missed so many wonderful things that are happening..

Well, as always, since I believe, I'm still quite young, I am now starting to meditate and think of what really matters to me and enjoy every wonderful moments happening in my daily life. 

People with no respect of others time.. Late comers

What should one do to make other influential and powerful people realize that being late in a meeting is disrespectful? Do they really thought that since they are seniors or the older ones. they have a right to make the younger ones wait for them to come? They are old but not matured. So unprofessional and utterly disgusting.

What I decided to do after my serious contemplation of what happened. I will start to make them feel that what they did was wrong. Even if they are the senior ones, they do not have the right to waste, our (the younger ones) time. In my eyes and thoughts I look down on them, definitely planning that when my time comes, I will never consider them to be my associates or will ever thought of doing business with them. As soon as I'm able to free myself from them, I will make sure that I will never, associate my name or company with them.

Being absurdly late in a meeting is disgusting, hurtful and humiliating..